I'm not a poet

Every time I close my eyes I see a corpses

Hocus pocus here’s a new trick

Drugs make you lose your focus

Dare not explain your life too much, it's bogus

This money is just money

It don’t define us

We never had much

How many times I almost caved in

Maybe these highs I'm chasing it’s not me

My heart split in half

No gymnastics

What if I could just stop

Take a breathe

You watched that Justin Timberlake movie where they had their life on their wrist

Feeels like im running out of time

Thyme needed to clear out n ease the pain

Penning all the thoughts on a screen

Open my thoughts let the blood spleen

What if I told my therapist no more sessions?

Im done here

What if I just dissapear

Will they miss the old me?

There’s nothing to see here only a mirage

That was something of the past that burns in me

100,000,000 miles and I miss home

No one help me when my eyes go red

Used to drown in my nightmares never had dreams

These days french inhale just to blow off some steam

Wrap my wounds, seal my mouth get on my knees

Ask the higher power is anybody listening

But He won’t speak back

When you pray do you seek forgiveness?

Or cry for more riches

They at the prayer call but they praying on your downfall, beware of the snakes

Little boy you are cursed by my ancestry

You need to let go of the darkness and agony

The thought fades away in piracy

Let me hold you close, I promise it’s not a fantasy

You see it in my face

Im glowing again

Was way happier when I was in trenches and didn’t have a bank balance

Broski borrowed some chumz to take his girl out

Glad I could provide it

I gave money then my nigga bought some blue pills got high as hell

I don’t know if I’m going to Heaven

Though I didn’t choose this life

I'm losing

Know that I’ll keep moving

I'm not a poet

Let these words paint picture perfect about the pain we hide

These are your words not mine

If you struggling you not the only one

Hope you don’t take time to recover

We’re all alone in this together.